Let's cut to the chase.

Lately, a lot of what's been troubling me have been my own silly insecurities.

I've come to realize that there are some things you can't talk to people about. I've learned to take a step back from my problems; evaluate and break them down into smaller, easier to digest pieces. I've got to learn to stop worrying so much. I tend to over think the smallest inadequacies in my life. When it comes down to it, I really don't have anything to complain about.

I've always thought of myself as a free person. However, what is it that makes you free? Is it financial? Is it mental? Or is it the ability to do whatever you want, when you want? More and more.. I feel like life is more about following orders. People say money isn't happiness, but does it not make things easier? So many questions that I wish I knew the answers to. There are plenty of people that give great advice, but is any of it the right advice?

I'm really nervous of what's to come. Actually, i'm fucking terrified.

All my life i've been told there's been an equation, a plan if you will, for that perfect, "house with a picket fence" ending. Go to school, get high grades, go to college, get a degree, get a job, get a house, pay the mortgage, have kids etc...

That's all well and good for the people that decide to do that.

BUT.

What do I do? What happens to my equation? Is my plan of action right? Am I doing the right thing? What the hell is the right thing to do?

Christ. I guess i'll never know. Well.. maybe not never, but not for a while anyway.

Good news though, I've finally got that job interview i've been wanting so long for!

It's on Monday, 1pm at Melbourne Central. Wish me luck?