Whatever you want.

Feeling: Introspective.

I was in the car today and I realized I have a lot of things to sort out within myself. Things that you can't really talk to anyone about apart from yourself. I dont know if everyone goes through this stage at one point in their life, but i'm certainly going through it. I've come to the conclusion that I don't have a lot of self-confidence. I put myself down almost immediately when it comes to some things because I feel like i'm not good enough. Either i'm not good enough as a person, or not smart enough or not physically good enough.

There are times when I think,
"Oh yeah i've got a chance".
Then a few moments later i'll tell myself,
"Dude, it's you. Do you really think it will go that way?".

I hate it man. I'm not saying I have a bad life, or i'm depressed or a combination of the two. It's just lately, I feel like giving up most of the time. I also have a real bad problem when it comes to jealousy. Is it because i'm selfish? Is it because I want things just to be for me? I don't know. These are just some of the things that i've been just trying to figure out in my head.

I also have quite a lot of love to give. I'm just a loving person. I'm not trying to get all sappy and sentimental, but I am. I tend to be way to protective over my friends aswell. I have a problem where I think I know what's best all the time. When the truth of the matter is I don't.